[Intro]
Yeah
I been quiet
Kinda too quiet
You feel me
[Verse 1]
Scrollin’ through my old texts
Dead friends in the group chat
Said you’d hit me when you got home
Guess you never really moved back
Mom callin’ just to check in
I let it ring on the nightstand
Half a pill on my tongue now
My reflection lookin’ like a fight fan
Eyes red
I ain’t even been smokin’
Just tired of the “you good?”
Fake smiles, small talk, goin’ through the motions
I been ghostin’ myself
Pushin’ everyone else
Said I’m workin’ on my mental
But I leave it on the shelf
[Chorus]
Heart so heavy that the bed frame creaks
I don’t even sleep, I just stare at the ceiling
Said you’d ride with me but you switched last week
Now I ride alone with the bass and the feelings
I don’t wanna vent in a group chat
I don’t wanna text, you won’t write back
Every time I love, I just lose track
Every time I trust, I get cut, then I run laps
[Empty Drop]
[Beat cuts, just faint pad and reverb tail]
[Verse 2]
Therapist askin’ me questions
I laugh it off, say I’m doin’ fine
Got a whole war in my head, though
Tellin’ everybody, “I ain’t got time”
Homies talk numbers, talk plays
I just wanna make it through the day
Put my phone face down on the table
‘Cause I’m scared of seein’ your name
I been drinkin’ on an empty stomach
Say it’s “just for the taste”
I been prayin’ I can outrun it
All this guilt, all this waste
My dad text, “I’m proud of you”
I don’t even know what that means
‘Cause if he really knew what I do
He’d delete my name from his screen
[Chorus]
Heart so heavy that the bed frame creaks
I don’t even sleep, I just stare at the ceiling
Said you’d ride with me but you switched last week
Now I ride alone with the bass and the feelings
I don’t wanna vent in a group chat
I don’t wanna text, you won’t write back
Every time I love, I just lose track
Every time I trust, I get cut, then I run laps
[Empty Drop]
[Beat drops out, only distant vocal echoes]
[Bridge]
If I say I’m okay
Would you call that a lie or survival
If I fade in the gray
Would you think of my face at all
If I post like I’m great
Would you double-tap, keep scrollin’
If I broke on the way
Would you notice, would you notice (would you notice)
[Chorus]
Heart so heavy that the bed frame creaks
I don’t even sleep, I just stare at the ceiling
Said you’d ride with me but you switched last week
Now I ride alone with the bass and the feelings
I don’t wanna vent in a group chat
I don’t wanna text, you won’t write back
Every time I love, I just lose track
Every time I trust, I get cut, then I run laps
[Empty Drop]
[Breathy ad-libs fading into silence]