[Verse 1]
Alarm again
Same crack in the ceiling
Counting breaths
Like bills and bad news
Coffee shakes
Heart already racing
Before I even choose
My shoes
[Pre-Chorus]
Every little thing feels final
Every step a tightrope line
I keep telling myself "just one more week"
While years slide by
[Chorus]
I’ve been treading water way too long
Face just above it
Trying to stay strong
Living on the edge of "almost gone"
Praying for a day this pressure’s gone
I just wanna wake up
Breathing slow
Not braced for the next hard blow
Hope I make it out before
Before I’m gone for good
[Verse 2]
Break room smile
Teeth on automatic
Jokes land flat
I laugh like I should
Phone lights up
Another “are you coming?”
I text back “yeah
I’m good”
Wish I could
[Pre-Chorus]
Every promise feels like fiction
Every plan keeps getting postponed
I keep saying "I’ll start living soon"
But I’m barely holding on
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
What if there’s a morning
I don’t flinch at every sound
What if there’s a mirror
Where I finally stick around
If I can just keep kicking
Past this dark
Relentless pull
Maybe there’s a shoreline
Maybe I get beautiful
[Chorus]